still confused... surprised?

this past week I was in Chicago and auditioned (obviously.. as the last post talks about) and now I am a little... okay that is a lie... a lot confused about what my future will be... my friend in Chicago shared this quote with me...

"If I am a Christian, if I have given Christ, Lordship over of my life - where I am in 5 years is none of my business. Where I am tomorrow is none of my business - make no long range plans unless God gives them explicitly. Hold everything loosely, but God Himself."

great quote right... humina!

Here is truth, I know God will use what He has given me for good... He will use the passions He has given me to further His gospel..
anyways. i am listening to a debate right now, and it is awesome!

audition and the sort

it has been awesome to be in chicago.. yesterday I kind of had a panic attack about my future and life in general... I am just learning to rest in God's timing and patience...
The audition went well this morning.. my voice was better than I was expecting so that is nice... the profs were very nice and gave me nice compliments... I also was able to ask a lot of questions (which helped with the freaking out part!)
Anyhoo... I will be leaving in less than an hour to go to midway and hop on a plane to hop on another plane to be back in dallas, and then on monday I will be on another plane to Puerto Rico...

woot woot! life is a crazy adventure... I'm just glad to be blessed to be a part of it! Thank you Jesus!

Chicago...

very short... i am now in chicago :-)

welcome to nebraska!

today has proven to be a very typical yet interesting nebraska day!
all day it has been extremely windy, which brought in a huge storm at around 4 p.m..... I was sitting in the living room and my dad walked in and informed me I should probably turn it onto channel 10 (aka local weather) and I did... only to find out that we were in a tornado warning... and at about the same time hail started to fall like snow in a blizzard! the wind was blowing as hard as ever, and the hail was beating against the house in such a way I never thought was physically possible without the house leaving the ground... i eventually went downstairs after about 30 minutes of pouring rain and hail and wind only to see my favorite wooden rocking swing chair thing knocked down and broken by the wind :-( very sad day in the neighborhood...

anyhoo, now it is peaceful in the good ol' town of hickman nebraska... oh but before i forget... I told my father on our way to texas roadhouse that we proved to be true nebraskans... even a tornado and hail couldn't keep us from our steak :-)

tomorrow is chicago... woot woot!

home sweet home

I came home this weekend and surprised Ashton :-) her birthday is on monday and she had no idea I was coming into town! it was quite amusing.... I had been talking with her boyfriend, evan, and asking if it was okay for me to stop by his place and visit her... he glady played along with the whole scenario! I was texting him because i wasn't for sure where he lived and when I got there he ran out and said he had been telling ash that he wastexting one of his army buddy friends and had to go outside to make a phone call... when I got into his house, ashton looked at me turned back and then did a double take... I think she said something like "no! oh my gosh!!!!!!" and then ran up to me and gave me about 100 hugs... no lie! it has been a blast to just hang out for a couple of hours these past two days!

Today i practiced for my Moody audition... my voice is so out of shape, and I have a stinking cold!!! humina! Oh well, it will all work out!

My plane ride was an experience as well! I am pretty sure God gave me my message for whenever we do our sermons this semester and I talked for about an hour and a half with a catholic woman from chili who lives in lincoln and a priest who lives in st. louis.... i love plane rides! either you can sit there awkwardly for the duration of the plane, fall asleep, or get to know the person next to you!

anyhoo... chicago will be awesome, I can't wait to head up there... I'm gonna grab dinner with Aaron and Channy and hopefully meet Channy's new guy in the meantime!! Exciting stuff....

well, now I am going to go drug myself because the medicine is wearing off...

that's all for now, folks!

:-)

just what i needed

This past weekend was amazing... as my friend Rose puts it, the whole weekend was worry free... we went to Sadies fathers house in Abilene Texas (spelling... i have no idea) but sunday night we rode horses into the sunset, which has always been a dream of mine! Then we just hung out while Sadies dad, Guy Allen, made us steak and amazing potatoes and other food... Honestly, I haven't really been that homesick this year, I have had some times of wishing I could be back home and help or do what my family is doing... but last night I was laying in bed and all I could think of was home, playing cards with my family, eating at the dinner table with my family, all that jazz, but then I got sad that I only have a few moments left with these people that have become my family and woke up and am fighting to enjoy what I have left...

So... I am reading this book called Vintage Jesus, its pretty good... the last part I was reading about discussed the prophesies leading up to Jesus... I have always heard about the prophesies, but I have never read them in the old testament lined up with the new testament fulfillment's.. things like that excite me to go to Bible school...

Oh, and this summer! Talk about exciting... It will be packed like normal, but this year I am going to be a helper at Camp Crossfire... Sadie's sister Cigis youth group's camp (does that make sense... ha!).. Sadie and Rose and I were talking about it on the way back from her fathers and it is going to be a blast!

Anyways... not too long and I'll be in Chicago auditioning for the Sacred Music Department, and then I'll be in Puerto Rico... random, but awesomely fun!

Love you all

where is the time

seriously, time is flying... before I know it I will be in puerto rico, and then before I know it I'll be graduating Masters, and then back in good ol' nebraska working at the farmers market selling handmade jewelry...

tomorrow I am heading out to Sadie's dads house... i think we'll be riding some horses!!!! I'll make a fool of myself (normal) but be having loads of fun!!!

so... random... I just entered paradise and there were a couple of gentlemen standing outside trying to raise money for a charity... the guy was really trying to sell me on it... and its not hard to sell me on something that will help others... but i really didn't feel good about it... granted I don't really have money anyways (hence hiding in the back of paradise using their internet without buying anything... :-/)... I wonder what God thinks when people scam others out of money to "help" people... i mean, its helping people, such as the scam artists, but no one else...

well.. i hope all is well.. I am going to go make myself a good dinner... what it will consist of I have yet to determine, but it is going to be good.... :-D

oh... forgot to mention Restores yard sale and car wash today... i think i'll upload a couple of photographs..

thoughts and things

wow... life is going by so fast... I just got off the phone with one of my closest friends from back home who goes to school in Chicago and then I started looking at some pictures of this year and my friends from this year, and from high school and college, and all I can think is that time is flying.... I remember coming into this year, not believing that I would have some of my closest friends, but now as I think of everything, my friends have grown... I still am extremely close with two of my friends from back home, but I can honestly say that I have let myself open up and shown myself to people that I didn't think I would connect with...

I can't imagine where I will be in a few years when I can't imagine what I will be doing tomorrow.... I really want to learn the concept of living each day fully... not ever holding back... but taking everything for more than what it is worth, always leaving with the understanding that I couldn't have given more...

well.. that's all, much love!