end of the year

i can't believe the end of the year is less than 20 days away... I have yet to decide what i will be doing next year, or what i will be doing this summer, this week, tomorrow, right now...... blah

i find myself wanting to cry at the thought of leaving, and i want to cry at the thought of staying... either way is going to break some part of my heart, and grow me in a new way...

anyways, thanks for the prayers, love you all... sorry i am such a mess! lol